Change – maybe not for the best

changesI was reading a blog that I kept in 2002 or so, and in reading those words I realize with some sadness that I have changed.  Of course most of us are not the same person we were 13 years ago.  I also realize how open that girl was, how tenderhearted.  How she had no problem telling you what was happening in her life at the time, and not just on the medical front, but for everything.

I don’t really do that anymore. Time has changed, Life has changed, the internet has changed, I have changed. I’m just as tenderhearted as I was back then, but the years have taught me that the wolves come for tender hearts first.  So I wrap my heart in 100 layers, and then hide it. My heart is nowhere near as easily accessible.

It sucks when you realize that you’ve been affected by things more deeply than you’d care to admit.

 

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Odds ‘n Ends – Hamilton and other stuff

  •  Still struggling with what to call my 31 day series if I do it.  Do you know I did a 31 day series in December and in May, and now October is basically here, and I don’t know what to do, well I know what to do, but I don’t know how to name it in a way that you’ll understand what I am doing.

Hamilton

  •  The Hamilton Cast recording is out, and I need to have that music.  Have I ever mentioned how much I love Lin-Manuel Miranda’s Mind? I’m sure I have, but how can you ever tire of hearing that? I remember hearing not gonna give up my shot when he shared it with “Twitterrico” for like maybe an hour back in 2011 or so.  I used to run an LMM fan blog with a friend, back in the day and he used to read it!  Good times, anyway –  It’s so great hearing how everything has come full circle for him.  It is an amazing album, especially if you care for music. Maybe you’d like to listen to it first? Then you should go see it.  I bet you never knew you could enjoy history this much!
  •  Autumn starts back going to drs.  First appt is on Sunday. Yes Sunday.
  •  I used to have a regular feature in my old blog called odds n ends, but that is when I used to talk a great deal more about my life stuff.  It was nice seeing it again.