It feels like everyday was a struggle this week, but I will not complain, everything could be so much worse.
Loneliness. You know what’s the most crushing loneliness? The loneliness – when you aren’t actually alone. The room is filled, your SO is right beside you, your bffs are in the other room, but you? You are lonely. That is the worst.
It can feel so lonely just in my life, what I deal with as a young person with a chronic illness. I fear that I’m becoming bitter at times, but that is another blog, for another day.
When you feel you are being looked down upon by another Christian for struggling or admitting that things are really rough in this moment, that also a lonely feeling. I feel like that’s just life at times, but sometimes the admission scares people. They are reminded of someone who struggled, and didn’t come back…”to the fold.” They wonder…will that be you too?
I always must remember that Jesus doesn’t want that for me, for any of us really. Jesus wants me to talk to him about what I’m struggling with. That thought alone helps me to feel loved. He cares about what I care about.
The first time I heard this song, I cried because I just could not imagine it. To that point, I just had always felt so utterly alone. Since that time, I’ve been able to actually experience this song for a little, but it still brings tears – of gratitude. We celebrate Easter this weekend – Christ followers. He did not have to endure the horrors of the cross, but he thought of you, He thought of me. He said – nope, not going to leave you hanging. I cant say you’ll never feel alone, but I need you to know for sure that you are NOT alone. You accept me, I’ll accept you. You will never be alone.
If these voices sound familiar, it is because they were featured in the film “Oh Brother Where Art Thou?”